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I Didnt Fall, I Was Pushed: Triumphant Recovery from Clergy Sex Abuse traces the faith journey of a five year old girl raped repeatedly by her fathers Spiritual Director, a Catholic Priest.The survivor, now a Psychiatrist, details the loss of herMoreI Didnt Fall, I Was Pushed: Triumphant Recovery from Clergy Sex Abuse traces the faith journey of a five year old girl raped repeatedly by her fathers Spiritual Director, a Catholic Priest.The survivor, now a Psychiatrist, details the loss of her faith and the painstaking rebuilding of that faith over the decades that followed.The book is set at a Benedictine monastery in New Mexico where the author spent four weeks studying Spiritual Direction. The gentle verbs and repetition of her account echo the quiet of the monastery. This stillness formed a stable platform for her healing and growth. Flashbacks provide the authors backstory.One of the epilogues is set in a clinic in downtown Dallas where the author later served homeless, mentally ill persons two days a week for six years. Working with murderers, rapists, burglars, prostitutes and those convicted of aggravated assault tested every principle the author learned at the monastery.PRAISE FOR I DIDNT FALL, I WAS PUSHED:This book is a story only a wounded healer can tell. It is a story of redemption and a healing journey that navigates religious identity and spiritual redemption. Dr. Delaney gives readers insight into the layers of healing that survivors of clergy abuse face along the path to transformation and advocacy for others.Jaime J. Romo, Ed.D., author, Healing the Sexually Abused Heart: A Workbook for Survivors, Thrivers, and SupportersSusan’s mindfulness brings epiphanies- she generously shares them with us in her book. Spiritual directors and pastoral counselors can learn from Susan’s gentle insights.Nancy K. Dunkerley, Founding Director, Spiritual Ministries Institute.The memoir unhurriedly reveals, in a solid, simple way, the story of her childhood sexual abuse by a Catholic priest, and how she lost and regained her faith after the abuse. The story is told in down-to-earth yet compelling prose. I strongly recommend this story of hope and healing.Frank Douglas, Voice in the Desert.Sexual violation is devastating to the body, to the emotions and also to the soul. The path to healing, which many never complete, is especially steep for the healing of the soul. Susan’s gentle and insightful story of her own journey serves as an encouragement to anyone who struggles with the pain of spiritual loss.Thomas P. Doyle O.P., author, Sex, Priests and Secret CodesThis book is an absolutely fascinating account of her journey from victim to survivor. Survivors and their advocates need to put into practice Susans words, I hand the thief back his shame.Steve Sheehan, Publisher, National Survivor Advocate CoalitionDoctor Delaney records her struggle and the process of becoming a healer as she herself was healed. The story is eloquently told. Truly a triumph to lead other wounded persons to the path of healing.A. W. Richard Sipe, therapist, author, Sex, Priests and Power.Susan has chronicled a very important part of her life. Her efforts to reconnect with her spirituality were challenging but successful. Those looking to reconnect with a “higher power” are encouraged to read this book. The real life story of one woman’s journey to wholeness is very readable and inspiring.Father Bob Hoatson, Road to Recovery.This spiritual memoir is about healing. It is a gift. You feel Susans hand stretched out, inviting you to find your own path to healing.Anne Barrett Doyle, Co-Director, BishopAccountability.orgSusan suffered terrible abuse as a child.